Ifeelmyself Artwork

symprez · 05-07-21 22:36:28

Hello loves, first I'd like to share my appreciation for this beautiful creation. Ifeelmyself is the only erotic website in my life and it's been that way for the better part of a decade. No space has brought me into a deeper connection with myself than this platform of free expression you provide us all.

To demonstrate the immensity of my gratitude for every shining soul on this site, I've been working on a 5'x5' painting that features screenshots of many of the brilliant creators on this site. It's a giant mandala of masturbation that sets the stage for a new paradigm of humanity, where female sexuality is the generative force of society and all grows from this state of heightened being.

The piece has been in the works for 3 years now, and is in its final months. I'd love more than anything to share this imagery with anyone interested, especially the creators and models, as a thank you for unlocking my own self sourcing. I posted a link to view the image, you really have to zoom in to view it at the level in which it's being created. My goal is to have it finished by the end of summer.

For anyone interested, you can find the rest of my work on insta @symprez

Again, I have so much gratitude and awe for the angels braving all to bring us to the light. Thank you thank you thank you. You've changed my life for the better.

https://postimg.cc/67X39fPX

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richard · 06-07-21 02:08:38

Amazing, will you share a shot if it here?

symprez · 06-07-21 02:31:32

Thanks for the suggestion, I couldn't find a way to add an image to the chat but here's a link to view the piece.
https://postimg.cc/67X39fPX

Mew · 06-07-21 02:57:16

Holy heck that is INSANE!!! I love it so much, I can see why your pieces take years - the detail is off the hook! I followed your ig, your work is AMAZING *heart eyes* I'm trying to see if I recognise anyone heehee I feel like I see Sadi in there

Miss_Katia · 06-07-21 03:18:24

Wow symprez, that's absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your talent and creativity with us all. Your time, dedication and detail channelled into this piece is both impressive and admirable.

I am very keen to see how it develops over summer, so please do keep us updated :-)

symprez · 07-07-21 02:59:13

I will put you two into the piece now that you've seen it, and see if I can recall the names of those already in there.

Mew · 07-07-21 03:43:24

I'm honoured! Can't wait to see the final product

_hyperballad_ · 12-07-21 02:34:44

Holy smokes symprez, your work is profoundly moving. Absolutely stunning. Beauty! Bliss! x

_redbird_ · 13-07-21 03:13:11

Holy heck sympraz, that is so gorgeous!! And really cool. You're intensely talented. Thank you so much for this!

Ejaculator · 17-07-21 14:20:48

Hi Symprez,
Thanks a lot for sharing your Ifeelmyself artwork.
I appreciate it, especially the beautiful colours and the geometras used.
Really great work.
Congratulations.

_redbird_ · 30-07-21 08:05:37

I thought about this again last night. It is breathtaking and just so fucking cool. I can't wait to see it in its final form. Perhaps we could get a print of it or something to put up in the orifice?

Hope you're doing well symprez.

viva · 23-08-21 19:09:32

oh no I wanna see it but the image is broken!!

ashmedi2 · 23-08-21 23:05:50

viva wrote:

oh no I wanna see it but the image is broken!!

Hello Viva, long time, No see... I didn't know you were here...
Hope life is treating you well...

viva · 11-09-21 20:40:02

Thanks Ash! Just popping in from time to time!

symprez · 28-10-21 17:30:26

Well loves! Coming back with the final image and write up for you, I do hope you enjoy. One link is for just the images, the other is for my page this is posted on.

https://ibb.co/album/svjbqH
https://www.instagram.com/p/CVi1_07sagW/

To Die Again Born | Sun | Babalon 60” x 60” Acrylic and Ink on Wood Panel.
They say the orgasm is the little death, if so it must also be the little birth.

Our Journey into ancient history begins where my planetary journey ended, with the biggest and longest lived piece I’ve ever created. There are neither beginnings nor endings to the wheel of time, but this is a beginning.
Modern mythological history has long depicted the Sun as a purely masculine force, a source of endless life giving and selflessness. Day after day the Sun rises without lapse, a consistency that continues to eternity. As a man primarily raised by feminine influence, who’s fatherly forces were much more like the waxing and the waning of the moon or like no moon at all, this was always a peculiar perspective to believe in. For me, the ever present endles source of life giving vital energy was most certainly found in the mother / feminine, and I think for many in our time this is true. For this reason and for the sake of continuing to follow the intuition which led me into this celestial project in the first place, my depiction of the Sun in this pantheon desired to be feminine.

It was desire itself that opened the next doorway into this story, a personal desire for knowledge, truth, and a healthy connection to this magnetic force which brings all into our life in the first place. Desire sits at the origin of all human actions and philosophically at the origin of life itself. We desire to live, and so we are born. Materiality calls to us from within, through the endless expanse of our desire, and we manifest here to fill its emptiness. We’ve been taught this is a shameful pursuit which certainly leads suffering, that our only hope for salvation is in the suppression of this primal tendency which is a useless relic from our time as simpler creatures on this planet. Desire has been wrapped in shame and forbidden, yet everywhere around us the world plays on this instinct and pulls on our energy by appealing to that which we’ve removed from ourselves. This makes the world of advertising ever more powerful, because it proposes access to something we can’t have, if we follow its lead.

Without mastery of our own desire, we are in a weakened state and destined to be lead by others who appeal to our inner void. It is not effective to simply deny the very real energy working within us, pray and hope for it’s dissolution through divine intervention. This is a living force within us that must be worked with and trained like a muscle, if there is to be any hope of controlling it. Why would the divine intervene with something we aren’t willing to put effort into ourselves? This question leads us to the path of Babalon, the great whore who it is said we must devote ourselves to in order to cross the abyss and step into the divine realm. Babalon is the Scarlet Woman, the Great Mother, consort of Chaos, who holds the graal from which one drinks to be saved. It is also said that Babalon represents the female sexual impulse and is an image of liberated woman. How can these two opposites be found in the same character? A dirty, sinful whore and a liberated woman?

Reserach into the origin of the story of Babalon has revealed some wildly alternate roots. Before the rise of Christianity, with its masculine God, there existed a Babalon who was held with great reverence by her followers. She was the endless giver, the one who births all life and to who all life returns. She ruled nature and was associated with the number 13, a time scale connected with the moon and its cycles throughout the year. She was fully woman, whose sensuality was a form of power, before being cast down and written into history as evil by the church. At this time as well, we see a negative association be placed on the number 13, and the rise of our modern time scale, based on the 12. Curiously enough, there are stories of a 13th zodiac who used to exist, who may exist once more, that lost their place in heaven for achieving immortality when it was forbidden. Ophiuchus is known as the snake bearer, and it is said they guard the gate to everlasting life.

How does this work though, we may ask. Simply giving in to desire is demonstrably destructive, especially with the layers of negative association we’ve placed upon through generations of life under religious control. In the modern story of Bablon, we are told that we must fully desire her, give everything to her and as we cross that endless expanse of the abyss, if we faulter for a moment in our devotion to her we will be lost forever in the nothing. A desire so strong does not come without practice, but how do we? This is a question I cannot answer with full assurance, so I offer what is only my theory here, and leave the question open to the individuals asking it for themselves. Personally my belief is that the answer lies in learning to approach our desires in a healthy way, as well as to desire healthy things. Rather than fight against urges to participate in destructive behavior, I’ve learned to steer those same urges toward activity that promotes growth and wellness. We can become addicted to life just as much as death, and to a much better effect. Once we become familiar with this force, it’s then much easier to approach a desire as great as connection with the all giving all loving source of life in the universe.

With the more taboo aspects of our desires, those most wrapped in shame and darknes, enunciation is a powerful tool for liberation. When we know ourselves and our wants, we can speak from a strong center and call things into our lives that fit into our destination, rather than trying to pervert and force what already is into a place it doesn’t wish to be. Communication is extremely important in the world of sexual exploration, and it is how we can approach our boundaries respectfully and expand without damaging ourselves and others. With Babalon there is a very deep connection to our sexual nature, with life there is a very deep connection to our sexual nature, and so I think it’s very important to be able to approch these aspects of ourselves and observe them. That’s not to say that everyone should go find a fetish, but more simply be in connection with their body, and know what moves it on a foundational level. There is great power in this union with self, especially for the feminine, who has been forcefully separated from this innate ability.

This piece then, is a symbolic energetic offering to the reemergence of the feminine, and the balancing of energetic forces in the world thrown off by the supression of power in those we rely on for life. At the center Babalon stands, holding the graal above her to bless its contents before we arrive and partake. She rides on the best Choronzon, a physical manfestation of the abyss, her protector and the challenge every initiate must face to reach their final destination. I’ve depicted Choronzon as an amorphous form created out of microscope images of seeds, drawing an association between the abyss and that state of nothingness which preceeds life.

Surrounding them, is a wreath of flowers in full bloom, life thriving and expanding through the sexual exchange of pollination. There are 13 types of flowers, each associated with a specific zodiac, including our lost but now found Ophiuchus. Outward from there we move to a ring of feminine blooming, figures in full pleasure through deep connection with self. This act of energetic liberation, sends life into the cosmos through nebulae, filling empty space with the building blocks of matter. The bottom right connects the macro to the micro, by including images of estrogen crystals. Finally this entire moment is held within the perfectly balanced from of the four elements, depicted by their associated platonic solids in each of the corners. Finally, weaving through the tale are three rainbow serpents, the carriers of knowledge and truth who came when my desire for connection with source called out.

This piece was a massive undertaking, and has seen every side of me throughout the process. To finally set her free and move forward into a future illuminated by fresh light is its own form of orgasmic liberation, to say the least. And now that we have a strong life giving center to a solar system, we can continue the journey through the rest of this planetary series of the darkness, protected by the light.

Thanks for all the inspiration everyone, you keep my body and mind activated in the most delicious way possible.

Prints and tapestries available:
https://symprez.com/collections/planetary-sublimation

symprez · 28-10-21 17:32:01

I'd love to send some prints or tapestries your way for sure, if you're open to receiving gifts for the office. <3<3<3

Mew · 29-10-21 00:14:18

I could look at this piece all day tbh! Ooh! Imagine a tapestry draped over someone and photographed... Even with water or underwater, oh my - kind of like this shot from Garbriele Viertel.. <3

It also makes me think of Juniper A's upcoming underwater shoot, she looks like a beautiful mermaid goddess (her work is incredible and I think you would love her diaries especially Symprez )

Click the link below for a glimpse at her new fantasy and adventure feature..

https://ifeelmyself.com/forum/viewtopic.php?id=23681

symprez · 29-10-21 19:52:22

Wow, these are next level stunning. Otherworldly mystical magical shots, I can't wait to see the release. Juniper A's videos have really been moving me, the reverence and intent she approaches her moments with sets the stage for a powerful spell. Definitely a spell that works as intended, I'm caught in her allure and don't want free. These underwater shots represent an entirely new dimension of expression where art meets the art of Junipers essence. The photos are also really making me miss Australia and all the activated womb mermaids there that I know. There seems to be a movement growing there.

Imagining the artwork intertwined with photos made me feel like a child meeting their hero, haha. That's a serious blessing. So is your enjoyment and praise, thanks so much for the love. Let me know how I can get some gifts to you, to thank you for the gift of this divine daily offering you bring us. Cheers

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Mew · 15-11-21 00:26:24

Sorry for the slow reply Symprez, I'm not sure how I missed this!

She is so beautiful and magical and you're absolutely right about the Australian Goddess ratio! Something in the water I guess I'm glad you got to visit before everything turned upside-down.

We would love to have tapestries or prints, they're so stunning - reach out via the contact form for delivery info and we can arrange it we are so excited thank you so much!

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