happy Viva day <3 and my goodbye...!

viva · 06-03-15 03:33:48

Hi guys, it's my birthday

I'm 29. I think it's time to tell you all that I will be moving on soon.

My path takes me onwards, I am a snake, shedding. March 20th will be my last day as ISM Head Editor and IFM Hostess at Feck.

I have been here 5 years now, and how incredibly transformative this time with you all, here at Feck, has been for me. I came to you small and eager, well-traveled yet unsure, passionate, trembling, insecure, fiercely independent, rough around the edges and bursting with potential, if only someone would give me a chance...

And someone did. Thank you, Richard - I will never forget that you took a look at me in my travelling clothes, 24 years old, unkempt and unprofessional, and invited me to work for you. I, who dropped out of high school, got myself into college only to drop out of that too - no degrees, restaurants on my resume, no bank account, no idea how to do taxes, having never 9-5'd, or Photoshopped - you hired me. You gave me a chance. And because of you, believing in me, I will go on to do greater things than I could have without you.

Thank you. Deeply.

To my co-workers, I have never met a more stimulating, exciting, comfortable, accepting or engaging bunch of folks. Many faces have changed during the time I've been here, while some have stayed the same - but the one constant is a sense of open-minded intelligence which is honestly not to be found anywhere else, in my experience. You are sharp, you are witty, you are gorgeous, you are dedicated. You have common sense, you are compassionate, you are not always nice, but you are always kind, you all display a work ethic which inspires and empowers me. Several of you are incredible artists whose work I will continue to stalk and fawn over from afar. I have felt so at ease, and welcomed, and celebrated among you, and I will dearly miss our camaraderie.

And all of you members, especially the loyal ones who I've known over the years - you know who you are. Thank you, too. Thank you for paying for what we make, because you make it possible for us to continue this dream of beauty and erotica. Thank you because there's just not much out there like us, and there should be. And maybe, because of people like us, some day there will be. And thank you for honoring me with your many compliments over the years, valuing as you have my words, my face, my body, my strength, my intelligence, my thoughtfulness, and my sexuality.

With this support, I have learned to value my own self in new and wonderful ways. I go forward much stronger, more at ease, more gentle and much more confident than I arrived. My understanding of myself as a woman, politically, romantically and sensually, has blossomed during my time here at Feck.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I leave you in wonderful hands. Over the past 2 years, I have watched my dear friend Devochka (soon to be known onsite by her new name, Laney) grow in many of the same ways I felt in myself. She has been invaluable to me as my assistant and teammate in managing Ishotmyself.com, and as you all know, she has oftentimes been even more active and present on this forum than I have. She's incredibly caring, thoughtful, talented and hard-working. Her keen interest and dedication to what we do here will ensure that our legacy of fiercely intelligent and awesome IFM Hostesses will continue.

So please give her a very warm welcome as the newest IFM Hostess I love you Dev.

I'm still around for a little while, so if you guys have anything you wanted to chat to me about, now's the time

Until then, yours,
Viva

March 6, 2015

aven frey · 06-03-15 07:28:26

I don't approve of any of this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ijSfWlv9Pbk

Rocketman133 · 06-03-15 11:04:37

You will be sorely missed Viva. I have really enjoyed reading your opinions, and thoughts here on the forums. And the synopsizes you put to each video are written with a sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with the respect and understanding that comes from having made the same videos as the other women on here. Which is a fascinating angle from which to approach the task.

Thank you for all your time and effort. I hope you will follow the example of Liandra and Gala and come back on occasion and grace us with your presence.

Good luck with your future endeavors.

Also, happy birthday!

ashmedi2 · 06-03-15 21:08:28

Good luck Pretty Princess <3

I will miss you more than you'll ever know... *hugs* and *Kisses*

Elsa_H · 07-03-15 03:21:37

Viva! This gave me tears and goosebumps all over my body! You are such a beautiful, intelligent, witty young woman and I feel so lucky to have briefly known you. You are such a unique soul and I admire your outlook and eloquence. I wish you well on your next adventure, even though it makes me very very sad you are leaving us! I have no doubt you will find happiness in your next corner of the world - you radiate such warmth and positivity. x x x x x x x x

PS; thank you for leaving the forum in such wonderful hands and happy birthday

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Junipur · 07-03-15 21:12:27

Elsa- I felt the same thing while reading what Viva wrote. I had tears in my eyes! She has such a talent for writing.
Viva- I hope your birthday was wonderful and full of the most love and happiness. You are so gorgeous, I adore the picture you attached. I know you will continue to have a beautiful, adventurous, fulfilling life.

troyforyou · 07-03-15 22:00:58

Viva,--Thanks for all the great videos. Live long and wank!

Monotreme · 08-03-15 14:15:19

Viva,
I will miss you greatly. Please find some way to stay in touch, and let me know what I believe in my heart, that you will excel at whatever you do. You have been a most excellent hostess and friend.

viva · 08-03-15 23:43:21

Oh Aven, that song... NOOOO it's not even 10am and ;_____________________;
Guys.. thanks so much for all your kind words. It's surreal to me to be moving on - seems like just yesterday I was reading Gala's goodbye, and trembling as I placed my small feet into those big-ass shoes she left...
wow.

dammit aven this song.

silverrock · 09-03-15 04:46:54

I wish her luck on her next job, it's a end of an era. Devochka will be great.

aven frey · 09-03-15 05:37:59

Today it's like this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOCWma5vOiQ

viva · 09-03-15 05:44:40

I love this song. I always thought it said "I wanna try on your tattoo..." which you can do, Aven. Anytime.

aven frey · 10-03-15 07:44:16

today, please can you stay a while...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyUta-SaPXc

viva · 10-03-15 07:48:45

ahhhhhhh

viva · 10-03-15 07:49:02

I just reread Gala's goodbye too ahhhhhhh

Redmango · 10-03-15 21:04:22

I've taken it for granted to see you around, but I guess nothing lasts forever. Best of luck in all your pursuits!

MisterEd53 · 11-03-15 02:21:42

"I don't know how Viva comes up with these clever titles. Some are obvious and some are so subtle. I like when I have to figure out her meaning or need to check the dictionary for the word." (From Conucopia 1 _ Shanna)

Dear Viva,

Thank you for all of your contributions to IFM, and I don't just mean your great videos. You should become a talk show host some day with your wonderful personality and interview skills. I would love to see a "Farewell Diary" video - How about it richard - kick it up a notch!

Best of luck to you in all you do, Viva!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zPOT8Z3UlM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c8jEapecSqc

Ba-Bye!

Mr. Ed

https://screen.yahoo.com/total-bastard- … 00788.html

a little humor

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Aaronhalt · 12-03-15 03:13:06

Well, I'll ask the obvious question:

What's next for you?

viva · 12-03-15 07:34:08

Oh Aaronhalt, thanks for asking!

I will actually be persuing an interest in birth work. I'm interested in seeing if working as a doula would be a good fit for me. I enrolled in a work study program at a birth clinic in Bali, so for 10 weeks I'll be doing clinic rotations and hanging out with midwives

After that, I truly don't know... I suppose my feelings about the work I do in Bali will help define my path. But before any path stuff, I intend to take a couple of months and rent a house in Bali all to myself, and just take a break from the world and see who I am when no one's asking me to do anything

Aaronhalt · 12-03-15 09:05:12

Do you think you'll still shoot for a bit more of your life, or are you done with sex work for the time being? And is there any amount you want to talk about moving on from documenting your sexuality like you have been?

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conquistador · 12-03-15 13:57:46

Happy Birthday Viva, you will be sorely missed. We should be the one giving thanks for all times your beauty and originality has graced a camera and our screens. You take care of you and the best in all your accomplishments. Will you still be popping up on the forum now and again?

MisterEd53 · 12-03-15 14:07:09

viva wrote:

Oh Aaronhalt, thanks for asking!
I will actually be persuing an interest in birth work. I'm interested in seeing if working as a doula would be a good fit for me. I enrolled in a work study program at a birth clinic in Bali, so for 10 weeks I'll be doing clinic rotations and hanging out with midwives
After that, I truly don't know... I suppose my feelings about the work I do in Bali will help define my path. But before any path stuff, I intend to take a couple of months and rent a house in Bali all to myself, and just take a break from the world and see who I am when no one's asking me to do anything

Wow Viva! That is awesome. You will be great at anything you do!

Mr. Ed

Aaronhalt · 14-03-15 19:39:46

MisterEd53 wrote:

viva wrote:
Oh Aaronhalt, thanks for asking!
I will actually be persuing an interest in birth work. I'm interested in seeing if working as a doula would be a good fit for me. I enrolled in a work study program at a birth clinic in Bali, so for 10 weeks I'll be doing clinic rotations and hanging out with midwives
After that, I truly don't know... I suppose my feelings about the work I do in Bali will help define my path. But before any path stuff, I intend to take a couple of months and rent a house in Bali all to myself, and just take a break from the world and see who I am when no one's asking me to do anything

Wow Viva! That is awesome. You will be great at anything you do!
Mr. Ed

Christ, now I feel like a rude git for not expressing that as well as asking more questions. That'll teach me to post at 4am in the morning.

Yes, congratulations. That sounds like amazing work, and a really logical transition from what you've done here, strange a statement as that may seem on the surface. (Though I suspect you see the logic.)

LydiaBennett · 15-03-15 10:58:04

bye babe, thanks for the horny words on my vids..you are such fun..
blessings from up north..
xL

viva · 15-03-15 23:57:30

I think I will be shooting some more. I've always loved shooting for IFM, even when I'm not feeling inclined to shoot for any less personally meaningful sites (I have in the past, for kicks and dollars) IFM often feels like a natural extension of myself and shooting is a time when I can explore and check in with my sexuality...

Unfortunately I'll be far away from our lovely office. At the end of the day, it's up to Richard whether or not I'm invited back to Aus to shoot for IFM later in my life But I would certainly be open to such a thing.

There's one more video of me in the pipeline, in addition to something I shot with Richard a couple of weeks back. If all goes according to plan, I'll be making at least one more before I leave, too. So, there will be a little bit of me left when I've gone

About the forum, I will come back and check on you all. I won't be able to resist! This has been such a big part of my life for the last 5 years. However it would be much, much easier for me to do so if we were to succeed in increasing forum useability... especially by having tagged posts! That way when you call me, I can come running..

Aaronholt, you're not a git, you're lovely. I agree that my next step seems logical - birth work unfolds very easily from working with female sexuality. It is literally and physiologically the next step. I didn't understand this part of your question though: "And is there any amount you want to talk about moving on from documenting your sexuality like you have been?"

Keen to answer though!

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